This week is about fear of loss. A few years ago, my father, my rock and my best friend became ill. It was the most terrifying thing I had ever experienced. I didn’t admit to anyone how scared I was because I felt I had to be strong and positive for everyone. The thought of possibly losing him was unbearable. I took my fears to God and decided to keep a praise journal. It helped me focus on what I was thankful for instead of what I was afraid of. On the day my father passed away, I wrote an entry that I’d like to share. I hope it encourages others who are dealing with loss.
“Well, the thing that I’ve been dreading for so long has finally happened. My father has finally given up his fight. Although, I miss him so much, I know he is in a better place. He is home with You, Lord. In spite of my grief, Lord, I thank You. Thank you for taking him home with You where there is no more suffering. Thank You for surrounding me with loving friends and family and I thank You for Your Holy Spirit that comforts me. Lord, I also want to thank You in advance for Your strength. I know that You are still with me. Praise be to God!”
We will all experience loss at some point in our lives. Yes, it hurts and it’s traumatic but it shouldn’t be something we fear, not when we know that we have a God who has promised to be with us even in our sorrows. God never runs out of strength and He is willing to provide as much of it as we need.
“I will turn their mourning into gladness; I will give them comfort and joy instead of sorrow.” Jeremiah 31:13 NIV
I know it has been a couple of weeks since I last posted something new. It has been a rough couple of weeks but I’m back. With that being said, this month’s theme is fear. This week I’d like to talk about the fear of the struggle.
When God has called you to do something, it can be exciting and scary but because it’s God and nothing is impossible for Him, you do it. You don’t think about all of the hard work and the struggles that you’ll face trying to do it until rejection hits. You shake off the first rejection, the second and even the third but when the tenth rejection hits you start to pause and rethink things. Every new battle leaves you a bit weaker and it starts chipping away at your courage. You think, I can’t take not one more beat down. You’re officially afraid of the struggle. You don’t know if the next battle or the next heartbreak will be the one to do you in.
Of course you can’t admit this to anyone. Christians aren’t supposed to waver in their faith and be afraid. After all, we walk by faith and not by sight. We’re supposed to call things that be not into existence. What will people think if you show your weakness?
The thing is, we are weak. It’s Christ within us that makes us strong. It’s Jesus that we must refocus on. If God promised something, He will do it. We just have to keep pressing forward. Yes, the struggle is real and it hurts but you will survive this.
“But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ.” Philippians 3:13-14 NIV